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Monday, May 12, 2014

Please Celebrate a life with me, thank you

Good Morning and thank you for reading this, I need to let everyone know why I posted this.  it's because Baxter was hit by a car on Saturday Evening and it is my fault. 

I know that you dont let your Cat's go outside if you love them but He was Whining so much and I just needed a few minutes to take a shower or something..I dont remember exactly what I needed to do but I thought he would be ok since he just goes under the porch.

I was wrong..I was so wrong ..something lead him across the street and some jerk kid was raceing around in his souped up Mustang or truck Im not sure but I heard them doing it and I though..how stupid of them to do that.

I never thought in a million years that it would be Baxter who they hit without stopping.  So after I did what I had to do I went to call him so I could lock the back door....I called and called but there was no answer , I looked behind the studio but there was no Baxter.

Then I noticed something funny..Claudette was by the fence but she wouldnt come in and that's when I sort of knew that something was wrong but I didn't want to go to the front of the house.

that's where I found him, it was a few feet from where I found him as a baby, he wasn't cold so it had just happened, I thought of revenge, hate, rage, anger all kinds of things and now Im just numb..Baxter wouldn't have wanted me to feel those things He wanted me to be happy, He liked to make me laugh so that's what I will do I'll be happy for him and I will laugh

Please laugh with me and be happy today, if you can... please post things that will make you happy in your responses to that I can be Happy too

this isn't Good Bye Baxter, if Heaven is for real I will see you at the Church when my time comes and we will laugh together..I love you


Be Happy

 Marisa

63 comments:

  1. Dear Marisa,
    This is so sad. Think only of how happy Baxter was with you. It does make me angry
    to know how careless and cruel some people can be.
    A warm hug, Drora

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    1. thank you Drora, I forgive the person who hit him and ran..Baxter would want me too and he would want me to be happy so I will be Happy

      Hugs
      Marisa

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  2. Marisa your know my heart is broken for you. I hoping to have a cat soon, a big Maine Coon and I want him to have the personality of Baxter. I am sooo jealous of the love you two shared and I hope to experience that too. I love the fact that Baxter would "hoard" your stuff. That is so funny to me and I think of awesome is that. A cat that need to have "a piece of you" in all his favorite spots!!

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    1. I hope you get him, my friend has a maine coon and they are wonderful..he wakes her up in the morning by playing with the knobs on her dresser...I think he's in charge of her :) thank you for bringing me that memory

      Hugs
      Marisa

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  3. Hello Marisa,
    I am so sorry to hear about Baxter. He was a beautiful cat. I know you might feel guilty, but it really wasn't your fault. Cats are clever, curious creatures and he was just at the wrong place at the wrong time. I'll be thinking about you and Baxter.
    Big hug,
    Giac

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    1. Thank you Giac, that means a lot to me

      Hugs
      Marisa

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  4. Oh honey..I am so sorry for your loss. He was certainly a big personality and a wonderful addition to your family. I know it will be hard to fill that spot but your family has enough love for another soul to join.

    All my best wishes for you all at this time.
    RIP Baxter
    ~J

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    1. I cant go looking but if someone needs my help, I will be there for them like I was there for Baxter

      thank you Jane

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    2. Thank you for his Superman Photo Jane..he looks Wonderful :)

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    3. That's how I will remember him ;)

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  5. Marisa,
    I hope that you don't think that just because Baxter is in heaven your stuff will not be messed with. Your minis will still disappear or end up on the floor. Just know he is messing with you till you see him again and can reprimand him. ;-)
    Hugs, my friend
    -Lisa

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    1. I hope so, I want him to do that just so I know we will be together again

      thank you
      Marisa

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  6. Dear Marisa! I'm sorry but I cannot laugh. My heart goes out to you. Please feel your sorrow because you must, you need to! This is so very sad!

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    1. I feel it Lucille, I feel it so much

      thank you

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  7. This is really bad news... so sad... but you deserve your wish to be fulfiled... so: Baxter's attics always made me happy, the lovliest little cat who was ever interested in a miniaturist's hobby. Here's to your swee boy - may he enjoy a happy, cheerful every-day "Kaffeeklatsch" at the other side of the rainbow bridge - having one, two bowls of tasty sweet milk and enjoying one, two, three, four portions of his favourite cat food!

    Marisa, will you do me a favour in return, please? Don't blame it on you - it was not your fault!

    Big hugs
    Birgit

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    1. thank you Birgit, I will do your favour becasue I need to be Happy Today :)

      Hugs
      Marisa

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  8. Hi Marisa, This post and these beautiful comments have made me so sad. I'm so sorry for your loss, and I really feel for you, because I know what it feels like to think it was your fault. We all do the best we can do in the moment, and not for one minute did you intend for this to happen. Cats are just like that--they hound you and hound you until you let them outside. Your Baxter wouldn't want you to blame yourself--he was just being a cat, and you were just being a human. Let yourself grieve, and remember all of the sweet times you had together. It will be really hard for a while, but it WILL get better over time. You're both in my thoughts during this difficult time. xo Jennifer

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  9. Hi Marisa, Not sure what happened to my last comment. I just wanted you to know that I understand about blaming oneself when these kinds of tragedies strike, so my heart really goes out to you. Cats are just like that, though. They hound you and hound you until you relent and let them outside. You didn't intend for this to happen, so you're not to blame. Baxter wouldn't want you sad and blaming yourself anyway. Allow yourself to grieve and remember the special times. The pain WILL lessen over time, my friend. You're both in my thoughts during this difficult time. xo Jennifer

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    1. thank you Jennifer, I had a lot of second guessing myself going on and it just drove me nuts but I just have to accept it and move on

      Hugs
      Marisa

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  10. Oh this I do know is heartbreaking ~ please please don't blame yourself. For reasons we sometimes don't understand when it is time for them to go , they somehow leave us and we are indeed so sad to be left behind without them. He is somewhere at the rainbow bridge , your little angel now. Find solace in the good memories ,
    Hugs ,
    Willow

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  11. Oh Marisa, what sad news, but don't blame yourself!!! Allow yourself to be sad today and smile/laugh tomorrow, will you try that?
    I'll always remember Baxter as a naughty cat. He was always in your neighbourhood and we laughed a lot about his acrobatics, so he was a famous, international star on your blog and above all he was very photogenic ;)!
    Big hugs, Ilona

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    1. I will try that IIona, thank you


      Hugs
      Marisa

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  12. Oh Sweetie! *BIG BIG BIG HUG*
    I can't add anything to all the other sweet comments so I got this for you
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0-Mr2pmuad4
    Just listen to it :) Hug AM

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  13. Marisa, I am so, so sorry to hear about Baxter. Please don't blame yourself. We get a relatively short time with our pets, so it is important to fill that time with as much love and happy memories as you can. Baxter knew how much you loved him. He had a wonderful life with you and that is what you must cherish.

    Hugs xxx

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    1. Thank you Pepper, He always wanted to make me laugh..thats what made him Happy..so I will be Happy for him..if just for Today

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  14. So sorry about Baxter! It's not your fault though. You have lots of happy memories, and sweet photos of him that you've shared here. Hopefully thinking about all of that will help. Feel better soon!

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    1. I feel better today, thank you Christina

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  15. Marisa I am very sorry for your loss. Do not blame yourself cats like to go outside and are very good at getting what they want. He knew you loved him and that's what counts. Be good to yourself and let yourself grieve and remember him with love.
    Warm Hugs Maria

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    1. it's the nights when I miss him the most, He used to cuddle with me even when I didn't want too. I miss that

      thank you Maria

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  16. I am so sorry for your loss hun. Grieving something is never easy. Email/skype if you want to talk

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    1. I just did, We'll skype soon ok :)

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  17. It's always hard to lose a loved furperson and I feel for you. Be glad you were blessed to know Baxter and be owned by him!

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    1. Thank you Susan, he was one of the greatest Furpeople that has ever entered my life, I will miss him and his Love.

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  18. Oh Marisa I'm so sorry! My thoughts and my heart are with you today. I lost a cat the same way a long time ago and I too blamed myself. When you've had some time to grieve please remind yourself that you gave him a wonderful life. He had a comfortable home, plenty to eat and so much love. I'm sure cats don't wish for more than that.
    Annejuli x

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    1. thank you Annejuli I am better today, I appreciate your comments

      Hugs
      Marisa

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  19. Heartfelt hugs Marisa. It is always so hard when we loose a pet. I have two 6 week old kittens and I just know I will worry about them when they venture outside but cats are inquisitive beings and love to explore. I also have three dogs but it is easy to keep them behind a protective fence. Please do not blame yourself. The thing about all the pets I have had is I have such wonderful memories of the special time I have shared with them as I am sure you have many wonderful memories of your pal Baxter. Just remember his fun antics and the wonderful relationship you had with him.

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    1. I do remember them, we had fun..thank you :)

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  20. I'm so sorry to hear about your beloved pet. Do not blame yourself, accidents happen, sometimes with horrific consequences. The people who didn't stop should be ashamed of themselves. Remember that you have given your cat a wonderful life and please think of the happy times you shared together.
    IndyPoppy

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    1. I am doing that today and Im smiling

      thank you

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  21. Marisa je connais la douleur de perdre un animal de compagnie, c'était son destin malheureusement, il faut vous dire qu'il est aussi heureux là où il est
    Bises, Lili

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  22. Oh, I am so sorry. :[ Sending you lots of hugs.

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  23. Oh, so sad! I am so sorry. It is heartbreaking to lose a beloved pet that way. My kitty insists on going out. I leave it to him and God when the final day will be....
    Please don't blame yourself! There is only sorrow down that path! As you know, Baxter wants you to be happy.
    (Hugs from my corner of the world)

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  24. I am so sorry for your loss. The way you have been writing about him, I felt like I almost knew him too! And this story brings tears to my eyes.
    Remember it was not your fault, cats loves to run around and be outside, and you can't watch them all the time...
    You know I'm not a cat-person, I'm quite afraid of cats, but I have come to like Baxter and your stories about him! So my addition to the happy celebration of Baxter's life is that he made me like cats better than before! =)
    Take care
    Hannah

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  25. Hi Marisa. This is Dreadful News about Baxter! I am so sorry that this had to happen.
    My dog Max Maxwell died yesterday from sickness and old age and so I know just how you are feeling. I too, believe that there is a pet heaven and that beloved pets will be waiting for us when the time comes. I send you Big Hugs and LOTS of Love

    elizabeth

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    1. Im so sorry to hear about Maxwell, you have my deepest sympathy Elizabeth and thank you for the hugs I need them

      M

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  26. oh no how terrible for you! thats too sad! I so love my cat Molly she does the same! Oh Im so sorry its heart breaking for you! we had a lovely gorgi called Rusty and the same thing happened to him we were so upset so I do know how you must feel please dont blame yourself these things happen Baxter was certainly a lovely cat you have such wonderful memories of him!

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  27. I feel you on this Steinworks. I own a cat too. He also complains really loudly if he wants to go out. I acquiesce, but if he doesn't come back as soon as I call him I always panic. The happy part? Look at all of the lives he has touched in miniland. OxOOO

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    1. yes he's pretty much touched everyone :) that's a comfort

      Hugs
      M.

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  28. Oh Marisa, I am so sorry, it wasn't your fault, it was the stupid kid. Baxter was a beloved cat, and he loved you. That has not ended. He is romping around the Rainbow Bridge right now, and you will see him again. In fact, he may drop in from time to time to make sure you are ok and to let you know he's happy. Xx

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    1. I hope so, I really do

      thank you Neen

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      M

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  29. Oh Marisa, my thoughts are with you. I will always think of Baxter curled up in your Barn House, making it his own. Cats are the greatest companions and I am so sorry his time couldn't have been longer.
    Here's a little something that makes me smile:
    http://www.buzzfeed.com/expresident/pictures-that-will-restore-your-faith-in-humanity

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  30. Thank you for your comment on my post at the loss of my cat, must have been difficult so soon after your own loss, I must have missed this post. Our Puddles had a long life, mainly because she was quite timid going outdoors so never strayed far. We have had additional sadness with the loss of our beloved dog Ollie on Sunday, complications due to his age. I have lost a young dog to an accident in the past and blamed myself. I am sure your puss had a great life with you and I believe our pets did too, that is why they stayed around so long. Like Neen said, I think they may be around us in spirit, wish I could see them though. Hugs to you.

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    1. oh Im so sorry to hear about Ollie, I hope they are around in spirit to watch over us. I wish I could see him but I know he's not in pain or hurting so Im ok

      Hugs
      M.

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  31. Am so sorry Marisa! I know exactly how you must be feeling, having lost little my little ginger Archie a year or so ago, in a similar way. But Baxter is just but a mere thought away! Take care. Celia

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